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Monday, August 25, 2003

virtue is its own reward; still stuck; LT's faith

I feel all virtuous. I told the kids there would be no videos for them or computer for me until our rooms were clean. Well, theirs are cleaner than they were, and they are watching 101 Dalmatians as a reward for their lots of hard work. And my room is actually really CLEAN; I cleaned our closet, cleared off the dresser, organized my bookshelves, the whole shebang. And I am ashamed of how many dirty clothes were heaped around in there. I do have another couple projects I want to at least start today -- I want to sort my "thin clothes" by size and label the boxes, and I want to get the school room clean and organized and ready for school next week. Oh, three: I also want to go through the kids' outgrown clothes and get them delivered to the people or places where they will end up.


Yesterday I was sure I had gained 2 lbs. Today it is gone and I'm back at -12. I'm glad that the 2 lbs have mysteriously disappeared but I am tired of being stuck here. I really hope that this is related to hormones and that in a week the weight will start to fall off again. Otherwise I am going to have to start thinking about believing all those people who are evangelizing me about their low carb or no carb or food combination diets --seems like half the time you tell someone you're counting calories and getting more exercise, they can't just let that lie; they have to tell you about the way THEY're doing it and that just eating smaller amounts of healthier foods and getting more exercise is not good enough. I have been diplomatically (and truthfully) telling them that I've never really given this a good try before, and I'm going to make a GOOD solid effort to just use common sense and get myself moving, and see how that works, before I get onto a "program". I have three other people to cook for, and I also want to avoid getting into a diet that I'll have to change drastically when I get into "maintain" mode.



Just arranged with my mom to go for a walk with her and the kids during her lunch hour today. I hope it's not too hot out there. I can't go swimming tonight because I have a chorus practice, but I do think I'll walk briskly to and from practice, and I'll try swimming tomorrow.



We had one of those almost-creepy-but-good experiences last night. LT had not been feeling very well off and on all afternoon. Then, late at night when he and T were watching Star Wars: Episode II, LT got that feverish look (for him, this is half-closed eyes and slouching posture, like he's becoming a limp rag). I took his temperature and it was well over 101. We gave him Tylenol but an hour or so later it still wasn't working. We set up the air mattress in the front room; LT and I would sleep there so that he would have someone with him and not be tucked away far at the back of the house where his bedroom is. After we lay down, LT, T, and I prayed that if it was God's will, could he please take away the fever and tummy-ache. Poor boy had just been getting hotter and hotter and feeling worse and worse. Boom, sixty seconds later the fever was gone; he slept peacefully all night and the fever never came back. That does amazing things for a little boy's faith -- and for his mommy's and daddy's, too. It also raises questions -- why him, and why then, and why not other children and/or other times? Why not serious, scary, fatal illnesses? Obviously God has a plan in everything, no matter how hard it is for us to see....



C will be ecstatic; she's been begging for lunchtime to get here for the past half hour and finally it's time. So off I go. :)

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