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Thursday, June 17, 2004

swimming lessons and deprivation

This has been LT's first week of swimming lessons for this summer. He is taking Basic Beginner. Again. This is due to the fact that the cautious side of his nature (which is substantial to begin with) takes on mammoth proportions around water -- which, hey, is good in a lot of ways, right? There's hope, though; last year it took him two weeks to get his head under the water and this year it only took two days. Every summer we have to work up to this again. I wonder if when he's forty he'll still have to spend a few days each summer getting over the panicky feeling that accompanies getting his face wet (even in the shower) before he can enjoy the pool.

I am trying not to think about how hungry I am. It's the 2:30 munchies setting in. From here till about eight o'clock it's always quite a struggle to keep myself from ruining all my hard work in the morning, eating a good healthy breakfast and lunch. Lately (OK, so since Thanksgiving) I've given in more often than not, which is why my weight is basically unchanged since December or January. But I keep recommitting (I remind myself of those people who go forward at Billy Graham crusades over and over and over), because the beach and my extra fifteen pounds are getting terribly close to a very unattractive collision. Those persnickety fifteen pounds! I know I can't lose them all by the time we go on vacation, but I'd like to at least lose half of them. :) So I will sit here and visualize a confident version of myself strolling on the beach in a swimsuit, and pretend that that makes up for the deprivation that comes with denying a craving. sigh.